My “Something” (Pt. II) – The Second Meeting

In August ’19, he moved to Baltimore, Maryland from Seoul, Korea in the hopes of becoming a pro lacrosse player. We only saw each other for about a month, and we just parted ways recently.

I have nothing but good memories for my first dating experience. Although our time together was brief, there were some moments when it felt like an eternity because I tried my best to live in and cherish those moments. It doesn’t really hurt to have lingering thoughts about him.

One week later, and we see each other again at the same conversation event. At the end of the event, he waited for me by the exit door. I was like, “Oh? You wanna… eat with me again?”

We walked to the Commons building together. (I forgot to mention this next detail in my last post, so I’ll mention it here.) Just like the first time we met, he proceeded to walk not one, not two, but maybe ten steps ahead of me just to open doors. Wow, what a gentleman.

Again, we had late lunch together. He bought sushi on-campus. I told him I like sushi too, and he shared some of his sushi with me.

Our conversations became a lot more interesting during this second meeting. One of the first things he asked me was “How old do you think I am?” What a weird question, I thought to myself. …Maybe he’s asking me because he’s older than what he appears to be. …And maybe he already graduated from college. “… 22” “No. …27.” …What? I’m 22, and I look so much younger. He’s 27, and he looks… so much younger, too. Ahahaha.

The next thing we talked about is what we wanted to do in the future. For him, he wants to become a pro lacrosse player.

People either know lacrosse, or they don’t. So for those who don’t really know the sport, it’s a Native American sport that’s older than America itself, and it’s gaining popularity.

I kinda had the feeling that he’d say something like that because of his Facebook profile picture and his abnormally. ripped. body. Since his Facebook profile picture shows him wearing the #1 jersey, I assumed that he was one of the team captains of a lacrosse team. But as soon as he said that he wants to become a pro lacrosse player, I immediately became shocked because that means that he didn’t just play for any team – he plays for Korea’s national lacrosse team. Moreover, he didn’t just pick a random state to move to – he moved to Maryland, home to some of the top lacrosse teams in the nation, as well as the US Lacrosse HQ.

I was a little bit familiar with the sport before meeting the guy I dated because I had high school classmates who played lacrosse, my high school was near Johns Hopkins (they’re known to have really good lacrosse players like Paul Rabil), and I read some things about the sport in encyclopedias when I was a kid. I’m not exactly sure how popular lacrosse will become in the future, but I heard that lacrosse might become an Olympic sport again. For now though, I do know that lacrosse is pretty popular in the US, but not so much outside the US yet. (Who knew that Korea was producing lacrosse players like him?)

Another thing we talked about was the movie “La La Land”. I never heard of that movie until he recommended it to me. He showed me a clip of the two main characters singing and dancing to “A Lovely Night”. (Eventually, I watch the movie at the end of the semester. I’ll talk about it in another post!)

That’s all I remember from our second meeting. Of course, the most memorable thing was the fact that he’s aiming to go pro. It was pretty evident that he liked me, but I wasn’t too sure about whether he was worth dating. Yes, he was pretty attractive. But some deal-breakers that I haven’t quite identified from him were personality and compatibility. I thought to myself, “I’ll try to come up with my decision next time we see each other again.” And to my surprise, it actually wasn’t too difficult to make my decision.

My “Something” (Pt. I) – The First Meeting

In August ’19, he moved to Baltimore, Maryland from Seoul, Korea in the hopes of becoming a pro lacrosse player. We only saw each other for about a month, and we just parted ways two days ago.

I have nothing but good memories for my first dating experience. Although our time together was brief, there were some moments when it felt like an eternity because I tried my best to live in and cherish those moments. It doesn’t really hurt to have lingering thoughts about him.

He saw me reading magazines in an office at my college. Then, the following day, we were at a conversation event for foreign exchange students. I was one of the few native English speakers and local students there. We were divided into two groups, and by chance I ended up sitting next to him. He asked me for my Facebook, and without thinking twice I stupidly accepted his friend request (him, a total stranger then). He also asked me if I was free after the event, and I was like “Yah”.
As we walked down a flight of stairs together, he complimented me on my outfit and how he remembered me from the office.  He said something like “When I saw you again today, I knew you were the same girl I saw in the office because you dress so nice and colorful.” I kinda felt embarrassed, and tried to return a compliment to him. “You too.” But ugh… I failed miserably because he wasn’t wearing colorful clothes. (Heheh.)

We had late lunch together. I could tell that he was a little bit shy and nervous. Something’s up.

One of the first things he asked me was “What’s my ethnicity?”, to which I replied with “… Hawaiian?” I guess that was our first time laughing together. He’s unusually tan… for a Korean. On top of that, his English is pretty good. “Can you guess what ethnicity I am?”, I asked. “Chinese?” “Close. I’m Filipino-Chinese.” Just like him, it’s hard for people to tell my ethnicity.
Deep down, we also had insecurities about our appearances. He was teased for looking ugly because he doesn’t meet the Korean male beauty standards. Me, on the other hand, was teased for not looking Filipino when I identify as a Filipino.

(For these next couple of things, I don’t remember which order they occurred in. All I remember is that they happened during our first meeting.)

He showed me what his favorite type of music is. The YouTube video he showed me was a Korean R&B MV with a ballerina in it. (I already had a hunch that he had a crush on me because he asked me for my Facebook and then proceeded to hang out with me as soon as possible. But watching the ballerina MV confirmed what I suspected.) When he asked me what kind of music I liked, I pulled up a Korean MV – “Eung Freestyle”. I didn’t think through my choice. He was shocked to hear the cursing and heavy rapping. I laughed at his reaction. To save my image (LOL), I told him “My #1 all-time favorite singer is Michael Jackson.” “Ah. What’s your favorite song by him?” “Thriller!”

“Why do you like Thriller?”, he asked. “Because I love horror. The voice in the middle of the song, Vincent Price, is my favorite part of the song. He’s a famous actor for horror movies.”

“What’s your favorite movie?”, he asked. “I think it’s House of Wax… because of Vincent Price’s voice and acting performance.” “How did you learn about that movie?” “I looked up Vincent Price because I heard his voice in Thriller.”

I looked at his book bag. It was a greenish/beige military-styled book bag with a lapel pin of the Korean flag. I asked him “You like guns?” Puzzled by the question, he went with a safe answer: “… I was… in the army…” And then I added, “I like hunting.” “… Hunting?” “Yeah. I was certified at age 13.” “… What’s your favorite gun?” “Muzzleloader.” “… One shot, one kill?” “YEAH~.”

After learning so much about me, he commented: “You dress so lady-like, but you’re so… tough.” And I was like… “Yah!”

Just as we were about to leave, he noticed that it was raining outside. “Ah~, rain…” I said. “…I like rain.” The afternoon was quiet enough for me to hear the rain tap the windows and my heart softly thump. Since I couldn’t really process my feelings toward him, I thought a second meetup would help me decide if he’s worth my time.

I don’t like cosplaying as a hobby.

While I was preparing for my Japanese studies as an incoming middle schooler, … I discovered cosplaying and a plethora of other Japanese stuff like anime, manga, gyaru (girl) style, visual kei style, …………

Anime and manga fans who cosplay – dress up as their favorite characters – were such “eye-candies” to me as a kid. The homemade or “professionally-made” costumes they wore were much more colorful, detailed, and unique compared to the Halloween costumes you’d see at your local party stores.

But soon after discovering the hobby, I realized that cosplaying is far from glamorous.

Continue reading “I don’t like cosplaying as a hobby.”

North Korea, Why K-Pop? Why Red Velvet?

Red Velvet – a South Korean K-Pop girl group – recently performed at North Korea.

North Koreans, and Kim Jong-Un, loved the performance much to Red Velvet and the world’s surprise!


Of all the cultural exchanges that have to be evaluated and approved by the Kim regime, why K-Pop? Why Red Velvet? Why are they allowed to gain exposure in North Korea – a country that punishes its citizens for accessing foreign entertainment, especially South Korean stuff.

It’s the “Red Flavor”.

Yeah, I’m referring to Red Velvet’s song “Red Flavor”. Go listen to it below if you’ve never heard of it.

“Red Flavor” is one of Red Velvet’s many songs that give the girls a playful and delightful image. It’s easier for guys and girls to enjoy Red Velvet’s presence and music than those of other popular K-Pop singers that have a powerful image.

Also, maybe Kim Jong-Un isn’t too comfortable showing K-Pop acts like “South Korea’s Beyonce”, Ailee, because he doesn’t want his citizens to feel powerful and autonomous?

Aaannd, maybe North Koreans want to share their pride for their country with “Red Flavor”.



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North Korea Mass Game Performance

Synchronization and Asynchronization

Both synchronization and asynchronization have been characteristics of K-Pop, but synchronization has stood out the most.

Synchronization in K-Pop was influenced by Japanese pop (J-Pop).

Asynchronization is a characteristic that K-Pop has refined recently when their choreography became heavily influenced by that seen in Western music videos.

Order, unity, and harmony in K-Pop and Red Velvet’s choreography make them seem a bit more appealing to North Koreans than, I guess, listening to solo artists like Justin Bieber dance with total asynchronization with his dancers to electronic music.


Going back to my point about how Kim Jong-Un might not be comfortable with showing “powerful” music and entertainers to North Koreans yet, Red Velvet is a favorable candidate to Kim because they’re girls. Male acts in K-Pop generally have a masculine and strong image, although there are some cases where male acts have a “soft” and cute concept.

Imagine if BTS was invited to North Korea. If they performed “Not Today” to North Koreans, then either people are going to react with patriotism or feel autonomous. It’s a 50/50 I guess.

BTS is South Korea’s most popular K-Pop act ever. They’ve won American music awards and have been guests at American shows. The group’s style is kinda reminiscent of 90’s boy bands infused with some street hip hop style and various other unique music genres. It’s really hard to describe their style. If you listen to their other songs, you’ll see that each song and album are vastly different from each other.

North Koreans might not be ready for BTS’ creativity and messages behind their songs. The messages behind Red Velvet’s songs don’t really seem “deep”. (I don’t mean to come across as offensive towards Red Velvet.) Really, their songs are just simply “bops”.

“Stay” by BLACKPINK vs. “Lonely” by 2NE1

Yay! Another song review!

Actually, they’re two song reviews!

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I chose to review “Stay” by BLACKPINK and “Lonely” by 2NE1 because both songs have the loneliness theme and are quite known for their unique acoustic melody.

(I was thinking about reviewing the song “Stay Together” by 2NE1 instead of “Lonely”, but I guess it’s better to go with “Lonely” because it’s popular like “Stay”.)

I’ve been a K-Pop fan since 2007 (when I was just starting middle school), and I’ve been a fan of 2NE1 ever since I stumbled across their MVs for “Fire” and “I Don’t Care” (in that order) when they just debuted. So, I’ll try to do an analysis of both songs without letting my inner 2NE1 fangirl influencing my comments too much, and compare the songs to other notable songs I’ve heard in K-Pop.

Since not everyone knows much about YG Entertainment and their singers, here’s a brief description of the company, 2NE1 and BLACKPINK.

(Note: When K-Poppers say “YG”, they’re usually referring to the company, and sometimes the CEO that the company is named after.)

YG Entertainment

The company was founded and is headed by Yang Hyun-suk. He was a K-Pop singer in a male group called Seo Taiji and Boys. That’s where YG Entertainment got it’s hip hop identity from – Hyun-suk’s hip hop idol background.

The company is focused on the hip hop genre. The YG songs you hear don’t really sound like “classic hip hop”; rather, their songs are more hip-hop-influenced or they creatively infuse the genre with other genres in a similar way to what mainstream American pop songs do.

Their first Asian mainstream success started with the singer Se7en. (I’ve never listened to his songs nor do I know anything about him. I’ve just heard YG artists mention his name in talk shows.) Se7en didn’t gain American mainstream success then (and now, sadly).

It was YG’s desire to compete with the American music industry and to popularize hip hop in South Korea that led them to create South Korea’s most successful hip hop solo singers, groups, and producer (Teddy).

YG’s first mega-success came from the five-member boy group BIGBANG. The group debuted in 2006, and steadily rose to success with songs like “We Belong Together” (2006) (a remake of Mariah Carey’s song, featuring Park Bom of 2NE1 before 2NE1 debuted) and “La La La” (2006). The song that first marked their legacy in K-Pop is “Haru Haru” (2008).

So why did I talk about BIGBANG? Well, read on!


(from left to right) – Bom, Minzy, CL, and Dara

Not long after BIGBANG had breakthrough successes with “Haru Haru” and other Korean and Japanese singles, YG announced that they’d debut their first girl group – 2NE1.

2NE1 is known as the “sister group of BIGBANG” because both groups became the most notable figures of Korean hip hop, are very experimental with their music and fashion, and their closeness with each other (hence the term “YG Family”).

The name 2NE1 means “New Evolution of the 21st Century”.

The group was active for 7 years, from 2009 to 2016.


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(from left to right) – Jennie, Rosé, Lisa, and Jisoo

Not long after the disbandment of 2NE1, YG announced that they’d debut a girl group that has the looks and talent – BLACKPINK.

BLACKPINK is known as the “2NE1 copycat” simply because they debuted with four-members and with two MVs like 2NE1.

Other than those similarities, both groups are extremely different stylistically; 2NE1 is known for it’s “powerful” image, while BLACKPINK has a “bubblegum” image.

(According to Jennie Kim of BLACKPINK, the group’s initial concept was a “powerful” image. Since the group didn’t debut with such a concept, she’s hoping that the group can have songs and MVs that are “a little less girly”. Jennie’s comment just further enforces the idea that BLACKPINK is a “2NE1 copycat” to those who don’t really analyze both girl groups.)

The name BLACKPINK means “classy” (“BLACK”) and “pretty” (“PINK”). Moreover, the color “BLACK” is added in front of “PINK” as to say that the group is more than just looks – they are talented as well.

BLACKPINK debuted in 2016 and is still active.

I hope my brief summary of the groups was good to read. Did you learn anything new?

Okay, now onto the song reviews! (LOL.)

(Note: I’ll be reviewing the songs without knowing the English-translated lyrics at first.)


Both songs have a plucking style.

The strumming in “Stay” seems to stand out more than the plucking, especially when the guitar strumming is emphasized with the “humming” of a harmonica. I guess it’s because the composer was going for a “campfire song” feel.

The melody of “Stay” makes you shift between sadness and happiness, while “Lonely” just invokes deep sadness throughout the whole song.

Because of how the strumming pattern stands out more in “Stay”, if I wanted to learn how to play the song on my guitar, I can easily learn the song’s chords and happily play the song without knowing the plucking pattern.

And since the plucking pattern stands out more in “Lonely”, I wouldn’t really be satisfied with playing the strumming pattern for the song.

(Most online sources post guitar chords for songs, and those chords are either accurate or pretty close. Whenever I come across guitar tabs online, they’re kinda off.)

As a guitarist, I love plucking. But if I had to choose between these two songs to learn, I’d pick “Stay” because of it’s tone (mood). The acoustic melody and plucking style of “Lonely”, while they’re so unique and beautiful, just makes me… sad. And that’s a feeling that I and a lot of people are uncomfortable with.

And you know, that’s probably why there a more views for the “Stay” MV than the “Lonely” MV – because people just don’t want to feel totally sad when they hear a song.

MV Styles

Both MVs have subdued, muted colors.

The “Lonely” MV focuses more on gray tones and has greater contrast in color tones, while the “Stay” MV has neon colors popping in front of gray backgrounds even though the contrast isn’t that high.

The wardrobe for the “Lonely” MV doesn’t seem to compliment the song. The girls seem to be rocking a punk-styled look, which I guess is supposed to emphasize their strong-woman image instead of adding anything meaningful to the song.

But the clothes BLACKPINK wore in the “Stay” MV kinda compliment the song (I guess?). The girls are wearing clothes that make them seem youthful, which I guess makes sense since the song has a “campfire song” feel.

Another thing that I just noticed while watching the MVs for this review is that the “Lonely” MV has background extras while the “Stay” MV doesn’t. Yeah, I mentioned how “Stay” doesn’t seem as sad as “Lonely”, but I’m surprised that I can feel the song’s up-beatness in the MV while watching the BLACKPINK members prancing around without any background extras to lighten the mood of the ghost town.

Which MV is better? In my opinion, “Stay” because of how the song and MV gets you feeling lonely but not-so-lonely at the same time.

That’s it for the reviews! I have class coming up. I wrote this blog post just before class, and I don’t think I have any time this semester to edit draft posts.

I can’t wait to review other songs I’ve been listening to like “Gashina” and “Heroine” by Sunmi.

Thanks for reading! Let me know if you’re into any K-Pop songs and singers.


Okay, I have time to say a few things in this blog post!

MV Styles

I wanna add one more comment about 2NE1’s “Lonely” MV – I love the muted color scheme because it’s pretty uncommon in K-Pop MVs.


“Lonely” is a difficult song to sing, in my opinion. Why? Each member of 2NE1 (well, not so much Minzy) has such unique vocals. I don’t mean to bash on Minzy; I just think that Minzy’s parts are pretty easy for anyone with a stable voice to sing. CL’s raspy voice, Dara’s cute and childish voice, and Bom’s nasal voice are pretty difficult to mimic. Okay, maybe CL’s voice isn’t as special as Dara and Bom’s voices, but it’s definitely much more distinguishable than Minzy’s voice.

On the other hand, “Stay” sounds pretty easy for anyone to sing. Rosé (the first girl who sings in the song) has an airy voice that seems unique, but it has been proven by other vocal trainers that it’s possible for any singer to mimic Rosé’s voice just by practicing the same (bad) vocal technique as her. Jennie is another singer from the group that is often praised for her vocals, and I gotta say that she does have a nice-sounding voice even though it’s nothing “special” really (compared to Rosé and Bom’s voices). Lisa and Jisoo are supposedly the weakest vocalists in the group, but they’re voices are quite pleasant to hear even though it sounds like they’re mostly “sing-talking”.

So, I think “Lonely” has the best vocals of the two songs not just because of 2NE1’s unique vocals, but mostly because of Dara’s pleasant voice. I mean, apart from the string instruments heard in the chorus, Dara’s voice alone really sets the mood for the song! When I listen to “Stay”, the instrumentals seem to be the ones that are setting the tone of the song, not anyone’s voices in BLACKPINK.

Okay, it seems pretty unfair for me to pick a song just because of one person’s voice, LOL. I don’t know what else to think. It just feels like everyone else in 2NE1 is “supporting” the mood set by Dara’s voice in “Lonely”. Usually, it’s the other way around in most 2NE1 songs; Dara’s voice would be “drowned out” or “in the background” while the three other members of 2NE1 would set the mood with their voices. And that’s what makes the vocals in “Lonely” so good – the softness of Dara’s solemn voice combined with the vocal “cries” of everyone else.

That’s it for the reviews! I have class coming up. I wrote this blog post just before class, and I don’t think I have any time this semester to edit draft posts, and to compare “Stay” and “Lonely” with other K-Pop songs (as promised earlier in this blog post). Maybe I’ll do some follow-ups in another blog post.

Re: “… I still haven’t had an abortion, but I wish I had.”

There are those that empathize others without putting in the effort to totally understand them, and those who wish that they really understand who they are empathizing.

Being one of those types of people is alright; it is only human to value each other’s lives.

However, it is outright inhumane to simplify other people’s life stories.

Despite the good intention behind Ms. Lena Dunham’s comment (to relate to women who had gone through abortion such as her mother and friends), her trifling comment implies that it is easy for anyone (including herself) to understand the emotional turmoil and stressful decisions that abortionists dealt with through impregnating oneself and signing the paperworks.

I hope that Ms. Dunham realizes that putting oneself into the shoes of others only makes you relatable to who you are mirroring on the outside, not inside.

Although I believe that killing people (including unborn babies) is never morally justifiable, I also believe that people have the right to control their lives.

I may not go through great lengths to understand abortionists, but I care about them and am trying to reflect my sympathy through this blog post.

I pray that those who are contemplating on and have decided on what to do with their child(ren) the very best.


Review of CL’s “Lifted”

As a BlackJack (2NE1 fan), I know that former 2NE1 member CL is no stranger to experimental music. In fact, I adore her for pioneering K-pop culture by creatively infusing all sorts of different styles and genres, and, in effect, efficaciously marketing it toa diverse global audience.

When I first heard her song “Lifted” (before the music video came out), I immediately thought of two 2NE1 songs that include reggae in them: “Come Back Home” and “Falling In Love”.

These three songs not only amplify the diversity in K-pop culture, but it also further breaks down cultural, language, and geographical borders.

However, “Lifted” is a much more successful song than “Falling In Love” and “Come Back Home” in that it epitomizes the K-pop culture as something that is not strictly Korean.

I’m impressed by how the song is clearly sung in English. As a native English speaker in America and someone who has been listening to foreign music for a long time, I find it difficult to understand songs when the singer(s) speak English either with strange pronounciations and/or grammatical mistakes.

Hearing CL speak English makes it so much easier for me to connect with her and Koreans in general, as well as allow her to connect with people who enjoy listening to English songs (especially those who do not even understand English).

I also love how the music video takes place in New York City. The choice of setting proves to the world and the whole music industry that K-pop is like a chameleon in that it can adopt whatever new characteristics it comes across by anywhere while retaining its original Korean character.